Blog #3: I think God can hear me

So, for the past few days, I have been in need of some serious help from above. Literally, I have stayed awake for hours thinking about ways to solve this problem that I have, with absolutely no luck. And nothing helps. Stress, worry, think, think, think...nothing comes to mind. What's worse is that my Bible is being shipped from California, so I don't even have that. The strange thing is, I felt like all I needed was one verse from the Bible, and I would have my answer. Just one verse, and God would direct me to what I needed to hear.

And just when I thought I was totally answerless, I found something. It was not so much an answer, but a note of encouragement.

I recently started reading a book that I had gotten about half way through last semester. It was random and I had definitely forgotten about it until I saw it on my shelf yesterday. So, tonight, while watching a rerun of The Office, I felt a sudden and unexplainable urge to pick it up again and start reading more from it.

I turned off the show, and picked up the book. It's a history book, about the Medieval Age and the Renaissance. Nothing inspirational or anything.

But then, as I was flipping through it to find my bookmark, I saw that there was a note card stuck between the pages near the end of the book. Thinking it was nothing, I pulled it out and was about to throw it away, when I realized that there was on the back of it, a verse.

I started to read the first line, and then my heart jerked. It was Isaiah 41:10, and if you don't know it, it goes like this:

"Fear not, for I am with you; be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, yes, I WILL HELP YOU. I will uphold you with y righteous right hand."

WOW! Seriously?!

Like I said, it's not a flat out yes-or-no type answer, but I know that it was a message from God, telling me, reminding me, that He's got everything under control, and He knows exactly what will happen, and that He will help me when the time is right.

It's been a long time since I have felt this kind of relief. It's small, yes. But it commands attention in a beautiful way.

So maybe I don't have my answer now. But I have a God who will help me, and who hasn't forgotten about me. And you know what? I believe that was EXACTLY what I needed to hear right now. It reminds me that God is not Santa Clause who you can chuck a wish list at and wait it out till everything I want comes down the chimney in a red velvet sack. No.

More than answers, I believe that God wants us to trust Him to know what's best for us, and be content with being answerless.

So, I am content. And I'm thinking that tonight, I'll be getting some good sleep. :)