graceless green hands, brain freeze, and lack of sleep

you know those nights where you cant sleep.

your body feels all heavy and dead, but you're mind insists on keeping you awake with boring, redundant or absurd ideas that dont go anywhere.

that was last night. a pleasure, really.

lately my life style has gone from bad to worse. too much studying cramps the brain, and leaves my body stiff and useless. i stumble and blunder through meal times, in classes, in any situation, chanting text from my history homework, or drawing the number of ATP yielded from...wait what was it again? i dont know, i left my brain in bed today.

renewed promises to exercise have assembled a slide show in my head of all the times i chose not to go to the gym, deciding to pursue other interests instead, and letting me know how bent out of shape i am now.

and little sleep, from all the nights given up to homework, thought, or sheer awake-ness, leaves one easily startled, along with falling asleep in your cereal, and being pretty much unresponsive.

looks like its time for a good breath of fresh air, and a week long break. in california, no less.

they say home is where the heart is, and i say home is where you can relax and be YOU, with no fear, no guard, no worry, no nothing. a little R&R does a student some good, and gives generous time to refill the empty tires of your soul, and the will to go on. its almost like starting a new year, with new resolutions, to be regenerated, and refreshed before you nose-dive back into the former rhythms of life.

home. with tv, and real meat (actually, that treat is under questionable study right now due to a possible baptism into a veggie-sovereign diet. we'll see), plus soda, coffee, and the kick-back-relax liberal-ness of sunny san diego. my gosh, i've missed it.

these past few days at southern have brought to mind the beautiful weather i was raised in. ah, to be home once more. just four midterms, one groome trip, one long plane ride and then..sha-bang. deposited into the arms of family and loved ones.

yes, spring break is a blessing if i ever heard of one. and these graceless green hands, the consistent brain freeze, and lack of sleep are warning signs of an urgent need to do as the summer time suggests, and just relax.